Spotify and predictions for 2019

Well, it’s been exactly one year since my last entry here.

A lot has happened but as the internet is not the same as it was 10+ years ago, I cannot describe most of it here. I have been toying with the idea of starting an anonymous half fictional, half true events blog somewhere else but I’m still not sure…

It’s been a roller-coaster of a year. I love my job and I have the most awesome colleagues, I’m happy sharing an apartment with a friend (although occasionally I long for a space which is entirely my own) and personal life has been… uh, let’s say “interesting”. I’ve done things I never thought I would do and some things I didn’t even dare hope I would get to do. I have faced challenges and overcome them successfully but there have also been times when I’ve come very very close to the dangerous edge. There’s been happiness and heartbreak, I’ve found people for myself and lost some, too. Manfred is still the best grump that has ever grumped and his wonderful mug has been immortalised on canvas forever now 🙂

I am extremely lucky to have such amazing friends and I sincerely wish that 2019 will be better for us all.

But now, the predictions! This time I decided to switch over to Spotify instead of Winamp, as I pretty much never listen to the mp3-s I have on my laptop these days. Also, my taste in music has changed a lot this year, among other things 🙂


The rules are simple: add all your music folders to your player of choice and set it on shuffle. The titles of tracks will be answers to the questions below. (I usually skip instrumental tracks but that is a personal preference.)

1. Where am I by the beginning of 2019?

Ed Sheeran & Beyoncé – Perfect Duet

Well, I found a man stronger than anyone I know
He shares my dreams, I hope that someday we’ll share a home
I found a love to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids, but we’re so in love
Fightin’ against all odds
I know we’ll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be your girl, you’ll be my man
And I see my future in your eyes

Eh… I thought I did… but sadly, I was wrong.

2. My main task in 2019.

Marcy Playground – Sex & Candy

Hangin’ round downtown by myself
And I had too much caffeine
And I was thinkin’ ’bout myself
And then there she was
In platform double suede
Yeah there she was
Like disco lemonade
I smell sex and candy here
Who’s that lounging in my chair
Who’s that casting devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely is a dream
Yeah mama this surely is a dream

LOL 😀 My main task is to have fun? Hell yeah!

3. Self-fulfillment in 2019, my “me” this year.

The Prodigy – Breathe

Breathe the pressure
Come play my game, I’ll test ya
Psychosomatic, addict, insane
Breathe the pressure

Guess I’ll try not to crack then?

4. Financial matters in 2019.

The Goo Goo Dolls – Iris

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Perhaps I will win the lottery?

5. Relatives and neighbours in 2019.

White Zombie – More Human Than Human

I am the Astro-Creep a demolition style hell American freak yeah
I am the crawling dead a phantom in a box shadow in your head
Say acid suicide freedom of the blast read the fucker lies
Make me do it again, yeah

😀 😀

6. Home in 2019.

Stevie Ray Vaughan – Pride and Joy

Well I love my baby, like the finest wine
Stick with her until the end of time
She’s my sweet little thang, she’s my pride and joy
She’s my sweet little baby, I’m her little lover boy

Yes, please ❤

7. Love in 2019.

Shaft – Mucho Mambo (Sway)

When marimba rhythms starts to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like the lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

So, maybe not terrible for once? 😀 😀

8. Health in 2019.

A Tribe Called Quest – We The People

The fog and the smog of news media that logs
False narratives of Gods that came up against the odds
We’re not just nigga rappers with the bars
It’s kismet that we’re cosmic with the stars
You bastards overlooking street art
Better yet, street smarts but you keep us off the charts
So motherfuck your numbers and your statisticians
Fuck y’all know about true competition?
That’s like a AL pitcher on deck talking about he hittin’
The only one who’s hitting are the ones that’s currently spittin’
We got your missy smitten rubbing on her little kitten
Dreaming of a world that’s equal for women with no division

…a mystery???

9. Partnership in 2019.

Tiësto & Dzeko – Jackie Chan

She say she’s too young, don’t want no man
So she gon’ call her friends, now that’s a plan
I just ordered sushi from Japan
Now your bitch wanna kick it, Jackie Chan

Lol, no marriage coming up, it seems 😀

10. Loans, mysticism and sex in 2019.

Metallica – Master of Puppets


11. Travels in 2019.

Robbie Williams – I Will Talk And Hollywood Will Listen

Ooh, I’ve never been to the US of A… One can hope.

12. Career and new work-related commitments in 2019.

Amon Amarth – Cry Of The Black Birds

Raise your swords up high!
See the black birds fly!
Let them hear your rage!
Show no fear!

Cool, I will get through it all like a true warrior 😀

13. Friends and social affairs in 2019.

Levski – Luna

Looks like it will be even more international. Bring it on!

14. Secrets and processes in the subconscious in 2019.

A Great Big World ft Futuristic – Hold Each Other

Everything looks different now
All this time my head was down
He came along and showed me how to let go
I can’t remember where I’m from
All I know is who I’ve become
That our love has just begun like oh


15. Where am I by the end of 2019?

Dr Dre, Snoop Dogg – The Next Episode

Hold up, waiiiiiiit
For my niggaz who be thinkin we soft
We don’t, playyy
We gon’ rock it til the wheels fall off
Hold up, heyyy
For my niggaz who be actin too bold
Take a, seeaaaaaat
Hope you ready for the next episode
…smoke weed everday!


Winamp predicts my 2018!

Here we go again for the umpteenth time!

The rules are simple: add all your music folders to your player of choice and set it on shuffle. The titles of tracks will be answers to the questions below. (I usually skip instrumental tracks but that is a personal preference.)

1. Where am I by the beginning of 2018?

Elvis Presley – ‘Paralyzed’

When you looked into my eyes
I stood there like I was hypnotised
You sent a feeling to my spine
A feeling warm and smooth and fine
But all I could do were stand there paralyzed
When we kissed, ooh what a thrill
You took my hand and, ooh baby, what a chill
I felt like grabbin’ you real tight
Squeeze and squeeze with all my might
But all I could do were stand there paralyzed

Heh, heh… I suppose there’s someone who feels that way about me just now indeed 🙂

2. My main task in 2018.

Puscifer – ‘The Undertaker’

Before I go tell me
Were you ever who you claimed yourself to be?
Either way I must say goodbye
You are dead to me

Right. Must not repeat mistakes from the past. Got it.

3. Self-fulfillment in 2018, my “me” this year.

Tom Waits – ‘Babbachichuija’

That… is an enigma, it seems 😀

4. Financial matters in 2018.

Wig Wam – ‘In My Dreams’

I don’t know if this is what it seems
Is it real or just a fantasy?
Aim to please is all you every do
Making all my fairytales come true


5. Relatives and neighbours in 2018.

Elvis Presley – ‘(Marie’s the Name of) His Latest Flame’

Drama ahead? Business as usual, then…

6. Home in 2018.

Sinead O’Connor – ‘Jump in the River’

And if you said jump in the river I would
Because it would probably be a good idea
You’re not supposed to be here at all
It’s all been a gorgeous mistake
Sick one or clean one
The best one
That God ever made

Iiiiiiinteresting… I wonder if I’ll move?

7. Love in 2018.

Tom Waits – ‘Get Behind the Mule’

Got to get behind the mule, yeah
In the morning and plow
Get behind the mule in the morning and plow

I wonder if this means I won’t be the only one doing the emotional labor this time…?

8. Health in 2018.

Pink – ‘Funhouse’

This used to be a funhouse
But now it’s full of evil clowns
It’s time to start the countdown
I’m gonna burn it down down down
I’m gonna burn it down

Uh… will I start smoking again? We’ll see.

9. Partnership in 2018.

Placebo – ‘Julien’

Fallen angles in the night
And everyone is barred from Heaven
Just one more hit to make it right
But everyone turns into seven
Now that it’s snowing in your brain
Another ten will not placate you
This ain’t no killer for the pain
This avalanche will suffocate you

That sounds like a warning but what the hell, let’s enjoy the ride.

10. Loans, mysticism and sex in 2018.

Tool – ‘Faaip De Oiad’

OK, um, um, OK,
what we’re thinking of as, as aliens,
they’re extradimensional beings,
that, an earlier precursor of the, um, space program they made contact with.
They are not what they claim to be.
Uh, they’ve infiltrated a, a lot of aspects of, of, of the military establishment,
particularly the Area 51.

Mystical? Definitely! 😀

11. Travels in 2018.

Depeche Mode – ‘More Than a Party’

Lots of surprises in store
This isn’t a party it’s a whole lot more

Yes please, it’s been a while 😀

12. Career and new work-related commitments in 2018.

David Bowie – ‘Janine’

Your strange demand
To collocate my mind
Scares me into gloom
You’re too intense
I’ll have to keep you in your place
I’ve no defense
I’ve got to keep my veil on my face

Yeah, challenges, I get it 😀

13. Friends and social affairs in 2018.

Pink Floyd – ‘Nobody Home’

And I’ve got second sight
I got amazing powers of observation
And that is how I know
When I try to get through
On the telephone to you
There’ll be nobody home

Gee, thanks, guys 😀

14. Secrets and processes in the subconscious in 2018.

Metallica – ‘Bleeding Me’

I’m diggin’ my way
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’ better
I’m pushin’ to stay
I’m pushin’ to stay with somethin’
I’m pushin’ to stay with somethin’ better
I’m sowing the seeds
I’m sowing the seeds I take
I’m sowing the seeds I take for granted
This thorn in my side
This thorn in my side is from the tree
This thorn in my side is from the tree I’ve planted
It tears me and I bleed

Looks like there’s some serious contemplation ahead…

15. Where am I by the end of 2018?

Nine Inch Nails – ‘Heresy’

He sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
He tries to tell me what I put inside of me
He got the answers to ease my curiosity
He dreamed up a god and called it Christianity
God is dead and no one cares
If there is a hell, I’ll see you there

Well, that’s… deeper than expected 😀 But I’ve always known that I’m not fit for the Christian heaven.

30 – 30 day poetry challenge

Day 30 – Write a poem employing extended metaphor to illustrate the experience of the last thirty days.


It started out as a healing process
But soon entered into a learning curve
Like a bobsleigh team from Jamaica
Not every day is a good day for creation
But some are
And those days are worth living for.

I did not manage to do it properly:
I had to write a poem every day
Without failure

But life happened, as it often does
And then it happened very intensely
I bet you thought I had given up already

However – here we are,
30 poems done!

I am content

28 – 30 day poetry challenge

Day 28 – Visit a virtual art gallery and look around until you find a piece that intrigues you. Write a poem inspired by the artwork.


consume consume consume
do not apply critical thinking
do not question authority
do not attempt individuality
consume consume consume


what goes in one end
comes out from the other
it’s the circle of life


consume consume consume
trust the majority
ten million flies can’t be wrong
accept what is provided without question
consume consume consume


26 – 30 day poetry challenge

Day 26 – Gather some magazines/catalogs you don’t mind cutting up and spend ten minutes flipping through them looking for words/sentences that spark your interest. Cut out the words as you go, and (at the end of the ten minutes) arrange the words to form a cut-out poem.

I don’t have any literature in English that I wouldn’t mind destroying but I have the most basic set of fridge poetry, which seems to be a reasonable substitute for this particular task.



25 – 30 day poetry challenge

Day 25 – Write a poem that includes all of the following words: pistachio, ink, pebble, weather, varnish.


Even the word itself is depressing –
Cold winds, pebble sized hail…
I try to peer out of my window
But it seems to be covered in ink.
The weather is fucking devious!
Let’s say rains a lot
And then there’s this one
Really Cold Night
And the next morning
Everything looks as if covered in
A thick layer of varnish
Except it is ice.
Ice ice baby…
No crampons? Good luck!
Better stay indoors,
Find that packet of pistachios
You bought last week but forgot
And devour its contents in one go.
You’ll feel better, I promise.

23 – 30 day poetry challenge

Day 23 – Write a seven line poem that begins with “it’s true that fresh air is good for the body” (from Frank O’Hara’s poem “Ave Maria”) and ends with “this is our body” (from Gary Snyder’s “The Bath”).


it’s true that fresh air is good for the body
but we all know air is invisible
and so are ghosts that reside in it
so every time you’re having sex outside
the spirits around you are whispering:
do you mind?
this is our body!